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Cake day: June 11th, 2023

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  • I can’t think of anything humane that is worse than being imprisoned, even if you are treated well. Though I guess if you don’t know of anything better anyway then maybe its different.

    At least writing this made me feel better, no need to read or reply if you dont want to. I don’t mean to dump all this on you, but I cant think of sensible place for it elsewhere. I’m not sure if its even good idea to post this but I want to hear someone else’s thoughts about it for chance, be it you or someone else who happens to see this crazy wall of text.

    If i could at least do something about things, it would be so bad but there is nothing I can do, only endure. Talking about it helps a bit, but it doesnt fix the problem. And by hell i mean slow erosion of everything until I have nothing left, not horrible suffering constantly. Its also not few big things but tons of smaller things that together make a mountain. Even if you fix one thing it doesnt remove the mountain and many things on it are things that can’t even be fixed by yourself. If i could at least work towards those things they wouldnt feel bad.

    I have also tried looking for help, but healthcare and especially mental healthcare is badly neglected in finland. If you can get treatment then its ok quality, but the thing is you can’t because there is queue that is probably years long. It didnt even used to be like this, but our current government sees anyone who isnt rich as scum and so they cut funding to basic things while giving tax cuts to the rich. They even cut funding from programs and institutions that help people find work, so unemployement has skyrocketed too.

    I guess this world feels like hell because so many things just fit into the concept for me. It doesnt feel like that all the time, if it did i would likely just kill myself or go insane and thus escape the suffering. Even if i want to kill myself I know I cant and shouldnt due to many reasons.

    I can’t stop caring about important things and i feel like if I seriously try its like mutilating my soul or making myself into something I hate so I cant escape that way either. Also the way I am is also making me suffer, i think. Intelligent enough to see the problems but just stupid enough to not being able to do anything about them but not enough to try anyway.

    I can’t do anything about those things because its like society itself has been structured in such way you can’t affect anything by following the rules and if you try it by not following the rules it doesn’t work either and just makes things worse. Best I could do is find someone else trying to do something and try support them, but I can’t find anyone and dont know where to look. I can’t even tell if its me who is crazy for caring or everyone else for not wanting to care about anything. I know I can’t fix world’s problems but doing at least something towards fixing them would be enough for me but I cant do anything alone that feels meaningful enough.

    I know my problems aren’t even that bad especially compared to many other people. I also know some are my own fault, be it either mistakes or just not putting in enough effort. I dont really even know why i cant find the energy and motivation for many things or how to improve that.

    I didnt want to go into specifics so there are a lot of other things not mentioned

    I have tried to improve things like starting to go to gym, sitting less on computer and going to different groups to be more social, so maybe that will start helping. I also really should try to look for ways how to help other people since good way to help yourself is to help someone else.

    But ultimately even all that feels like just enduring by making oneself feel better about things.

    I have written similar things before and just deleted the whole thing. I guess I can just delete it later if it turns out to be bad idea. I just dont want to be silent about it all again. Its also going way off topic from the main thread, but at least I enjoy reading other’s off topic conversations here so hopefully its not that bad thing.





  • That is how the plan is put in action. You cant start planning after the gears are in motion because you have limited time to act. And even if you have unlimited time to act, you still need to be prepared to utilize whatever is happening. All kinds of people, other rich people included, will swarm to benefit from things becoming more open for change. Russia had a revolution that started soviet union and we all know how that turned out in the end and have to pay for it even today in form of how russia currently is.

    And I’m not saying dont make the rich to listen if nothing else works, just that if you get to that point it will be start of something that either changes something or cements current status quo even worse and you shouldn’t do that haphazardly or it will just make things worse. In fact, best way to do it would be to plan first what you do once you succeed. Though before even that there needs to be a group dedicated to this.

    And as to how to make them allow the change, I think managing to turn the general public against them would be good starting point. Cant do much if majority doesnt take you seriously or considers you a threat. So people should be made to feel less alone and apathetic, which is undoing whatever the rich have been doing so stay in power. This alone wont likely do it, but it will support whatever might come next. At least its something anyone can try to do, for example by doing volunteer work that helps those in need, creating communities for people to be in instead of just rotting in social media and generally attempting to make other people happier and acting like decent human being. And if you feel more rebellious, getting the message across by doing stuff how resistance usually achieves it, like writing the message into somewhere to people to see for example. With enough repetition and time it might start to sink in. Just nothing that would make regular people afraid since that is the tool that benefits the enemy.

    Maybe there are better ways to do that, but at least this is what comes to my mind at the moment.